the photon torpedo

Sympathy Magic by Florence + the Machine

Memory fails me, names and faces blur
There is only after, or before
Am I so different? Have I changed?
I do not recognise my face
The scar fades, it pulls inside
Tugging at me all the time
Chewing on a feeling and spitting it out

I do not find worthiness a virtue
I no longer try to be good
It didn't keep me safe
Like you told me that it would
So come on, tear me wide open
A terrible gift
Let the chorus console me
Sympathy magic
And a light coming in the window just so
And the wind through my fingers
The only God that I know
And it does not want me on my knees to believe
Head high, arms wide
Aching, aching, aching
And alive

So come on, come on, I can take it
Give me everything you got
What else? What else? What else? What else?

Nightmare by First to Eleven

I, I keep a record of the wreckage in my life
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
They talk shit, but I love it every time
And I realize
I've tasted blood and it is sweet
I've had the rug pulled beneath my feet
I've trusted lies and trusted men
Broke down and put myself back together again
Stared in the mirror and punched it to shatters
Collected the pieces and picked out a dagger

"Come on, little lady, give us a smile"
No, I ain't got nothin' to smile about

'Cause kindness is weakness, or worse, you're complacent
I could play nice or I could be a bully
I'm tired and angry, but somebody should be

Someone like me can be a real nightmare, completely aware
But I'd rather be a real nightmare, than die unaware, yeah
Yeah, someone like me can be a real nightmare, completely aware
But I'm glad to be a real nightmare, so save me your prayers

Still Holding My Hand by The Cast of Roald Dahl’s Matilda The Musical

I was sure that I
Would never escape the story I'd
Had written for me
I couldn't find a way out
I couldn't see beyond the clouds
That swirled around me
Then one day, I opened my eyes
And looked up to find
That the sky had turned blindingly blue
And right by my side, there was you
Quietly taking your stand

I believed that I (I believed that I)
Would never be able to rely (Would never find anybody else)
On anybody else
And I was sure that I (And I was sure that I)
Would just have to learn to survive (Would always be all by myself)

You were just there for me
Quietly taking a stand
Changing the end of my story for me
You were there as I battled my fears
I fell and you helped me to stand
When the storm finally cleared (You were there)

You kicked down the doors for me (Kicked down the doors for me)
You helped me understand (You helped me understand)
There was another version of me

People Like Us by Kelly Clarkson

Hey, everybody loses it
Everybody wants to throw it all away sometimes
And hey, yeah, I know what you're going through
Don't let it get the best of you, you'll make it out alive
Oh
People like us, we've gotta stick together
Keep your head up, nothing lasts forever
Here's to the damned, to the lost and forgotten
It's hard to get high when you're living on the bottom

We are all misfits living in a world on fire

Hey, well, this is not a funeral
It's a revolution after all your tears have turned to rage
Just wait, everything will be okay
Even when you're feeling like it's going down in flames

What It Sounds Like by HUNTR/X

Nothing but the truth now
Nothing but the proof of what I am
The worst of what I came from, patterns I'm ashamed of
Things that even I don't understand
I tried to fix it, I tried to fight it
My head was twisted, my heart divided
My lies all collided
I don't know why I didn't trust you to be on my side
I broke into a million pieces, and I can't go back
But now I'm seeing all the beauty in the broken glass
The scars are part of me, darkness and harmony
My voice without the lies, this is what it sounds like
Why did I cover up the colors stuck inside my head?
I should've let the jagged edges meet the light instead

So we were cowards, so we were liars
So we're not heroes, we're still survivors
The dreamers, the fighters, no lying, I'm tired
But dive in the fire, and I'll be right here by your side

My voice without the lies, this is what it sounds like
Fearless and undefined, this is what it sounds like

Die Your Daughter by Susannah Joffe

Wear me down
It's not in my hands now
Quit fucking around, no time to kill
I'll stick around if you will
Getting older looks good on you
But, God, someone make it stop
Nature will run its course
I'm left to pawn you off
I will die your daughter
I will, I will die your daughter

Scream My Name by Tove Lo

Fist fights, long nights, come home late
Can't sleep, I keep me awake
Flip through the lives on TV
I'll say, for now, I'm happy
Love it when I'm play-pretending
When I can take bullets to the heart
Fuckin' up my happy ending
But I can take bullets to the heart
Breathing violence and love, I was born on the scene
Now it runs in my blood, yeah, you know what I mean
When I'm dead and gone, will they sing about me?
Dead and gone, will they scream my name?
Scream my name
Wake up, guard up, and I'm bored
Night runs with guns, too hardcore
Don't dare to care about someone
I'm dirt, I'm ice, is that wrong?

I Know the End by Pheobe Bridgers

When I get back, I'll lay around
Then I'll get up and lay back down
Romanticize a quiet life
There's no place like my room
But you had to go, I know, I know, I know
Like a wave that crashed and melted on the shore
Not even the burnouts are out here anymore
And you had to go, I know, I know, I know

After a while, you went quiet
And I got mean
I'm always pushin' you away from me
But you come back with gravity

But I'm not gonna go down with my hometown in a tornado
I'm gonna chase it, I know, I know, I know
I gotta go now, I know, I know, I know
Drivin' out into the sun
Let the ultraviolet cover me up
Went looking for a creation myth
Ended up with a pair of cracked lips
Windows down, scream along

Big bolt of lightning hanging low
Over the coast, everyone's convinced
It's a government drone or an alien spaceship
Either way, we're not alone
I'll find a new place to be from
A haunted house with a picket fence
To float around and ghost my friends
No, I'm not afraid to disappear
The billboard said "The End Is Near"
I turned around, there was nothing there
Yeah, I guess the end is here